Probably my last post til next year – happy holidays, everyone!
I really should be packing for my trip – but I’m such a procrastinator when it comes to packing. It takes me hours – I need to research the local weather, figure out how many casual / dressy items I’ll need, determine what kind of “active” clothing I’ll need (will there be swimming? Hiking? Snorkeling?), remember to pack the iPod charger, cell charger, camera battery charger, local adaptor… I’m exhausted just thinking about it!
It’s been nearly a week since TC went out of town – we exchanged a few messages and e-mails, but only managed to connect on the phone today. He sounded strangely distant, and when I asked if everything was OK, he gave the old chestnut that he was tired. I still have that nagging feeling that he’s having doubts about us – but since I’m about to go out of town as well (for a few weeks), I need to just hit the “pause” button and accept that there’s nothing I can do right now.
Actually, I’ve had a bit of a distraction from TC of late. I have a good friend who has fabulous parties on a regular basis – at one of these parties about a year ago, I met one of her guy friends (let’s call him Flirt) who I thought was quite cute and charming. I also met his girlfriend at that same party, so needless to say, I immediately wrote him off as potential date material.
Fast forward: about a month ago, we ran into each other at another party, and he seemed, well, quite flirty. I learned that he and his girlfriend had broken up, but as I had heard stories about his amorous exploits on a recent vacation, I just assumed he was flirty with every woman he encountered. (Not that I would have taken him up on any potential offers anyway, as I was quite happy with TC).
Post-party, Flirt sent a few flirty messages (aka, Superpokes) via Facebook – I “Superpoked” back with more chaste messages. I must admit, the attention was somewhat flattering (even if it seems like he flirts with everyone) – especially in light of not feeling so much attention from TC.
Fast forward a bit more: another party, this past weekend. Flirt was there – TC was not. Flirt was definitely noticeably flirty. He’d pull me close in a group picture, he’d make sure I had a drink, and in a self-timer picture, he planted a big kiss on my cheek. I must admit, the attention was quite flattering. However -- even if I were single, I don’t think he’d be boyfriend material – but it was a fun, innocent distraction from my TC angst.
It should be pretty obvious on these pages that I really want things to work out with TC. But would it help to cushion the blow a bit if I had a (possible) fling to fall back on if we were to break up? Maybe. Let’s not think about that right now.
Happy Holidays! Here's hoping for less angst on these pages in '08!