Had a lovely, romantic time with TC last night – but now I won’t see him until next year – actually, our next date is set for a month from today.
I have my big exotic trip coming up, and while I know I’ll have a blast, I’ve been a bit bummed about not the thought of not seeing TC for almost 3 weeks. Well – he just found out a few days ago about a big business trip he needed to go on this week. He left today, and he’s not coming back until the end of next week, after I leave for my trip. So much for that final, romantic weekend I'd been looking forward to!
This was a mentally draining week. Earlier in the week, I went from not really “feeling the love” from him to being convinced that it was over between us… mainly on the basis of his not calling and e-mailing as regularly as he normally did. Maybe it was a combination of a bad dose of PMS, stress from work and lack of sleep, but for a day or so, I got on the crazy train and couldn’t find my way off. Many supportive e-mails with wonderful friends were exchanged (thanks, everyone!), and they really helped me put things in perspective.
Thanks also for the advice here as well. Trust me, in my head I know I need to just relax, and stop overthinking this, and stop trying to predict what might happen with us. I wish it were as easy as that.
I’m in a better place today, and will do my best to stay here! Actually, this time apart might even be good for us – sometimes it’s good to be in a situation where you’re missed. This will certainly be an amazing time for me – a new country to explore, a new culture, some time spent with my parents. I’m excited for the adventures that await me!