In an e-mail exchange about men and relationships with my very wise friend M, she wrote:
Sooner or later everyone gets married and has kids; but does everyone get to have an interesting life? So I take the latter as my goal and figure the former will probably take care of itself.
Love that… I’m going to try to make that my new mantra. Though to be honest, I’m not really sure if marriage and kids are guaranteed for me… but really, are there any guarantees in life?
TC update: not much communication this past week, and I was a bit disappointed when he had to cancel our mid-week plans (though he had a good reason – long work day, blah blah blah). However, we had a wonderful night out last night – went to a friend’s performance, then out to dinner with her and a group of extended friends.
It hit home what a wonderful guy TC is when one of the other guys in the group, P, kept finding something to kvetch about: “this bar is too noisy!” and “we really shouldn’t leave that big of a tip!” Funny sidenote: I had a Match date with this guy P about 3 years ago. Just that one date… that was more than enough. (In the years since, our paths have crossed a few times, as we have a few friends in common).
I’m always telling myself that I just need to “wait and see” when it comes to relationships, yet I generally find it hard to put that into practice. Well – shocker of shockers – I think I’m finally in a place where I’m OK with the waiting and seeing.** It certainly helps that I have a busy month coming up – lots of parties to attend (some with TC, some without) – and a big, exciting trip planned for later this month into next. **(at least for today -- let's see how long this streak can last!)
Speaking of… this is the same trip that I had asked TC to meet me on (why the hell can’t I write that sentence in correct English? Feel free to help me here, someone). Anyway – he told me today that most likely, he won’t be able to meet up with me on said trip. No problem – that would have been fun (and quite interesting, in terms of the “relationship”), but I know I’m going to have a fabulous time anyway.
Looking forward to tonight: drinks out with CJ – we haven’t done this in a while, and we have lots of dishing to catch up on!
*** ps: I know I shouldn’t read into this, especially since I finally convinced myself that I’m in “wait and see” mode: last night, Performer Friend told us about another show she’s planning for the spring. Later in the night, TC told me that he’d really like to catch that next show. The old me would have read this as him telling me “I’d like to catch that performance in the spring… with you… which means I see us together beyond just today and tomorrow”. But the new me? Just says (to herself) that we’ll just wait and see.
Is this mantra getting monotonous yet?