In the several weeks since our first date, Camper and I have seen a LOT of each other. And it's only in this moment of reflection, trying to conjure up words for this blog post, that I'm realizing it's too much, too soon. He tells me often that he's crazy about me... and that he misses me when we're not together. I think we both need to allow for some distance, some mystery.
Saying that -- there have been those moments when I'm just thrilled to be walking down the street holding his hand. Just a few weeks ago, I looked upon those hand-holding couples with envy. Now, I'm suddenly one of them.
Yes, it's official -- we're a "couple". We determined rather early on that neither of us was dating anyone else. We've started to meet each other's friends. There are couple-y pics of us on Facebook... but I'm certainly NOT ready to declare us as being "in a relationship" on Facebook, for the world to see. Save that for a few months down the road.
And yet... I must admit, New Guy lurks in the back of my mind. To be continued...
Monday, December 1, 2008
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New Guy isn't interested. Camper is. Even if Camper didn't exist, New Guy wouldn't be interested. And then you would still be envying those hand-holding couples!
Interesting, isn't it, that you were so eager for a relationship, and now that you have one you are talking about it being too much, too soon? The human heart is a tough one to figure out.
But this sounds like the best thing to come along in ages. If a guy tracks you down after two decades, that means he is supremely interested. My hunch is that this will turn into a "real long-term" relationship. Lucky lucky girl!
--JAC
Interesting that you are still thinking of New Guy. Are you sure you were ready to commit to being exclusive with camper?
JAC: trust me, I know... the human heart IS tough to figure out! I wish I could figure out my own!
I totally "get" that New Guy is NOT interested / emotionally available at this time. More details to come, but we've agreed to be friends for now. And yes, he knows I'm seeing someone else.
JGO: right now, it feels right being exclusive with Camper... of course, that doesn't mean we're getting married! Just getting to know each other.
interesting that it took till you wrote the post before you could articulate your ambivalent feelings. i could never have processed all my dating experiences without my blog...never.
Yeeps! I'm so behind. I totally understand those linger feelings for NG (you know I do!). It's a process, letting go. The aggravating part is that feelings rarely follow logic. But all that aside, I'm thrilled to hear that things with Camper are progressing so well. -a&v
Bonjorno, loverville.blogspot.com!
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