Monday, August 16, 2010

"A little fat".

Holy cow. It is really time to get my act together, and get my (growing) ass back to Weight Watchers.

I gained some weight during a few delicious international trips earlier this year, and have yet to take it off. That, combined with the fact that I've been having a fun, decadent summer complete with food-and-wine-filled beach excursions hasn't helped. My weight is way up, and I'm not happy about it.

I'm 5'4" -- my "I can live with this" maximum weight is about 140. Lately, I've been hovering about 145 - 149. I keep meaning to lose the weight, but have just been lazy and unmotivated to do so. Until today.

Today, I was in my local grocery store, chatting with the older neighborhood Italian guy who sometimes hangs out there. I understand basic Italian, and mentioned the fact that the store was out of skim milk, so I was buying 1%. He mentioned that I was "un grasso poco" -- a little fat.

I was rendered speechless. It's one thing for ME to think I'm carrying a few extra pounds, but for someone else to mention it? Ouch.

[It only occurred to me just now that maybe he was referring to the milk as having just "a little fat", and not me. Regardless, I need to take action.]

It's high time for me to nip this in the bud, and do some healthy food shopping, start cooking more and eating out less (I have a pile of Cooking Light magazines and Weight Watcher cookbooks), and amp up the exercise. Going to Weight Watcher meetings helps to keep me in check -- I haven't been to any since earlier this year, and must start again. I really have to cut down on eating out of boredom, as well as excessive snacking.

I've mentioned my weight concerns to Jon Hamm -- he thinks I'm beautiful just the way I am, and feels that I don't need to lose an ounce. I absolutely appreciate this, but right now I'm not feeling comfortable in my own skin, and need to do something about it.

I've done this in the past, where I've lost 10 lbs in 10 weeks. I'm going to shoot for Sunday or Monday weigh-ins. Next Sunday, Aug 22, will be the end of week one, and so on. At this rate, I should be down 10 lbs by Halloween. I'd like to lose more than that, but that's a start right now.

Anyone else care to join in the challenge?

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

What does a relationship "look like"?

Evan Mark Katz seems to be a mindreader.

Every so often, I'll find myself mulling over some relationship-related thought, and BAM! An email on the topic shows up in my in-box. It's kind of kooky.

One recent one was titled All You Know Is That You Don't Know Anything. I can't find this on his blog, but the line that hit home for me was:

I questioned the relationship because it wasn't what I thought it was supposed to look like.

(he's referring to the early days of dating the woman who is now his wife)

This was how I'd been feeling about Jon Hamm. While he IS a fabulous guy, as I recently mentioned, a few things gave me pause: He makes less money than I do. He's a much hairier guy than I'm used to dating. When I show up on a date wearing a dress, he's typically in shorts and sneakers. (albeit, it's a neat, "preppy going sailing" kind of look, though he's neither a preppy nor a sailor)

And yet...the more I get to know him, the less these things are an issue. Again, it's too soon to know where this will go, but in the past two-plus months, he has consistently made me laugh, has helped me with home improvements and is always ready to give a foot massage when needed. He's thoughtful and smart and affectionate. The chemistry is fabulous.

And -- I find that I'm thinking about him more and more in between dates. Even missing him a little bit.

AND -- the craziest part of all this? I'm not stressing out about him, as I so often do in the early days of dating. It just feels easy. I never wonder when I'm going to hear from him. I haven't been worrying about how to label this, or wondering when I can call him my "boyfriend".

One more thing, perhaps the most telling -- I have no desire to smooch anyone else. Just tonight, I decided to take my Match profile down (I hadn't logged on in weeks anyway).

This is feeling really good.