Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Over.

Breakups suck.

After 14 months of dating, Sam and I broke up this past weekend after struggling for the past few months.   I don't have the energy or inclination to go into details, but put simply:  we're at very different places in our lives.   He's in the midst of a divorce, with 3 young kids, and knows for sure that he doesn't want to get married again.    I could go either way as far as marriage, but I DO know that I want to live with someone -- I'd really like someone to come home to.    And he's not sure when / if he can offer that.

There's so much more, but I'll leave it at that.     Terrible roller coaster at the moment:  one minute, I'm feeling relieved not to be feeling the frustration I've been carrying the past few months.    The next minute, I'm sobbing in my office with my back to the door, hoping no one comes in.

I feel no desire whatsoever to jump back on the online dating bandwagon just yet.   Need to give time time.